Even just ten minutes can be enough to help me feel grounded again. There really is something to just kicking your shoes off and putting your feet in the grass, closing your eyes and just breathing in the sweet smells of summer.
While I was taking some time for myself, I also took the opportunity to reflect on where I have come as a person, where I am now and of course where I want to be. So I pulled out my planner and started jotting down words and ideas. Before I knew it I had filled a page with goals and dreams and wishes.
This process has served me well. It's loose and free flowing, honest and unrestrained. It's like brain storming with a room full of people, but there's really just me there. I don't feel like I have to hold myself back in fear of judgement. It feels so amazing!
Even better, is that so much of what I had written down I had included in my vision board only a week ago. I love affirmations that come through channelling positivity and emotions and then challenging myself to lean into the discomfort, that like other, I all too often feel.
It almost takes you back to when you were in primary school and the teacher let you cut out whatever pictures and words you liked and wished for for your future, and you glued them down onto a cardboard poster.
But the major difference is. . . as we got older, we forgot how to dream without boundaries. Cloaked in the guise of being a "mature adult" who "doesn't have time for childish thoughts because we have all of these mammoth responsibilities!" So we forget who we wanted to be.
But I have come to learn that there are amazing treasures out there, but they require us to get curious and lean into the discomfort a little. . .and sometimes a lot, but the rewards are so very much worth it!
I have learnt to speak my own truth. To protect what I hold most dear. And I know when I'm not aligned with my truest self and am going off the path that was meant for me.
I have learnt to love myself and search for my tribe. One that wants me to be my best self and understands when I fall and picks me up, dusts me off, gives me the words and encouragement I need to keep aiming for what it most fulfilling for me.
Today I finally got all painterly! I can't tell you how good it felt!
I found myself with a couple of hours between appointments and my daughters netball games, so I snatched it up just for me!
I pulled out my gelli-plate and paints. Cut up some pieces of baking paper and began printing. I had no plans, just curiosity. All I wanted was colour and paint all over my hands!
Through this process I was able to tap into more of what I needed to make for me. . .and essentially what would become workshops and products. I have planned my product lines and original artwork collections. Now to get moving on it all!!!
I was beginning to feel a little overwhelmed, but then I pulled out my planner and got to work mapping out workshop dates and time to paint. I work better when I have lists. It feels great to get it all out of my head and onto something that makes me feel a sense of accountability.
So my friends, if you are feeling a little lost for direction, I encourage you to lean into what it is you are avoiding and get curious. That's where your treasures lay. You are amazing! You can do hard things! You are so very very loved.